Feeding the Darkness

Asphyxiation of Decay

Self Deception within: When you look into your reflection, all is that you see is an empty vessel with no sense of purpose or direction.

Asphyxiation of Decay

Eats way like an infectious disease consuming your life

Take all the good inside you suffocating you

with each breath, you grasp more you struggle to stay alive quicker you are drifting away into the abyss

Until you are no more just distant memory on the path of shattered dreams

Air leaves your lungs leaving lifeless fading away into Laurent abyss the asphyxiation of empty decay


Grey Waves into the Lost

The walls that used to be strong and firm are eroding from the decay the foundation once remain is crumbling more and more every day I am so lost in translation of what used to be trying to keep my head above every day seems to slip deeper into the abyss

No matter what I do the walls are closing in

I am losing myself more and more how will I swim or drown so many looked and see me for fraud I am why I keep lying to myself

I wish I could fucking tell you but I don’t Goddam know do I continue to fight live or die drown or swim

What is the fucking point anyway

I try to stop from seeing the grey waves taking me further into madness

Each day passes by seems more of what I am trying to keep dying more and more every day I can sense the walls closing in should I live or die drown or swim wish I fucking only knew what the truth to that was

I am so lost out in sea all I see is grey waves surrounding me

Will I ever find the shore as the lighthouse shows me the way back home again or I’m left in dismay and sink further and further from the shore being lost in the tides of Grey Waves (ApeX)

Storms in Life will rip everything away from you if you let it the will to act is your choice either fight or live and let yourself die..Say I Fucking QUIT


13 thoughts on “Asphyxiation of Decay”

  1. Once in my life I asked a friend to help me learn to dive and sit in the water. He was a diving instructor. I was doing a diving course but it didn’t go well when I had to go much further down. I also asked him to give me a little help, not financial, to get out of my life, but he didn’t accept. So he let me drown and I was still here suffering. He then, after a long time, apologized and said that he had not been able to take the responsibility of helping me. But I will never forgive him. I didn’t want to see him again. In my life I have always helped everyone, everyone. And I’ve always been strong and I’ve supported and supported everyone. And when I asked, the only time, I was left to my fate. My heart broke and I couldn’t leave anymore.

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    1. Thank you for sharing Fairy Queen

      When I laced Asphyxiation of Decay a song is much like a story and fragments are lyrics reveal the story , event experience

      World needs to have more Conviction souls like you the light has been absence from me for long time ago it was solace of Darkness welcoming me with open arms that molded me.

      I am the Villain through and through

      You do you see yourself as hero or Villain and why ?

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  2. I blog frequently and I truly thank you for your information. This article has truly peaked my interest. I will take a note of your website and keep checking for new details about once a week. I subscribed to your RSS feed as well.

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  3. I’m not well now. I’m like the figure in the water. I’m drowning. I should change place where to live. But now I have to wait because of the Covid 😔

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      1. Hope all is well with you Wendy

        Just was doing some clean up and saw one of your replies so thought I would reach out and hit you up too see how you are doing.


        Primal R.e.p.r


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